Obsession with Self

I live in a world filled with obsession, obsession with self.

I live in a world where every day & every thing starts with I and every day & every thing ends with me.

I live in a world which has produced many great people, whose sacrifices/ acts are unfortunately limited to books of history and whose sacrifices/ acts are unfortunately looked at as an exception rather than deeds to be followed.

I live in a world where every good action, which is not obsessed with self, is looked at as an action used to promote some hideous desire or purpose and that a good action is just meant to act as an decoy hiding some secondary purpose associated with it.

I unfortunately live in a world where I am supposed to feel me, enjoy me, pamper me ....... and think only about me because any other thing I do is supposedly not me.

A Day to remember

Jul 9, 2007 is a Day to remember and I will surely remember it as long as I can :D

My success with a standardized test is well documented. But whats not documented is the fact that I had lot of things going for me. First of all, I was wished by so many people before I wrote the test. So many of my friends who are far far away remembered the day and wished me well. Good wishes bring a lot of energy with them. On the morning of the exam, I got to know( I should have known ) that it was the birthday of a special friend and yeah this news brought with it, its own share of Feel Good factor and then my roomies, what could I say about them, they are the best and they really did not need to do anything other than what they were doing to make me feel good. So I had many things going for me but then there were other important events that took place on the day that make it so wonderful.

My roomie, Uday who got into Gatech got his F1 Visa. Though there is little sadness that one guy with whom I have become close of late is leaving, I am ecstatic to see some one living my dream, well my old dream. Off late, my dreams have changed. So what was my dream, I dreamed of studying computer science in a Top university and there are few better ones than Gatech in the whole world!!!. Of course I keep wondering how my dreams have changed but then they do. Right now I am celebrating my dear friend Uday's entry into Gatech and I hope and I am sure he will fulfill all his dreams in the Land of Opportunities.

My other roomie, SHIP, well his real name is charan, cleared his orals. He is a marine engineer who traveled lot of places, something many people will die for. But marine engineers have this stupid promotion exams where in they have to clear exams and orals to get promoted. The only difficult thing about the orals is that it depends on the whims & fancies of some person, who only decides to pass a person if he is in a good mood. Of course all orals are like this especially when they are not monitored well. I am more happy for SHIP because he is this crazy guy who really gets emotional & worried about his future. So seeing him enjoy like the way he does without any tension was cool, really cool.

When things go well, You want them to go well and I am no exception. I hope I have many such days to remember and I am positive that I will have many such days.

Life after GMAT

With GMAT finally done, I can sense a feeling of confidence gripping me.

Long before I started preparing for the GMAT, I knew that GMAT was just a part of a application process and that I need many other things going for me to get into my Dream school. But there was this constant fear in me regarding my chances of getting admit in a top BSchool. With a good GMAT score, there is a slight mindset change where in, I am my concentrating more on other important aspects of my application and I know I need to concentrate and work more on them to get them right.

There are so many things I need to plan and there are so many things that I want to blog. But then there is this GMAT hang over thats preventing me from expressing myself. So for a start, I will stop writing about GMAT in my blog. I guess I have already given way too-much importance to this test and its high time, I stop thinking about a standardized test.

Done with GMAT!!!

I have completed my GMAT and must say, got a pretty good score.


Score: 750 [ 49(Q), 42(V) ]

The Day before the exam, contrary to all my plans, I studied a lot. By the end of the day I was tired and I also had a little headache. Anyway I was confident that I had planned & prepared excellently for the exam and that I should do well. I was expecing a minimum of 720.

All though I managed to stay on bed until 8, I didnot get a proper sleep. Got up, took a bath, went to temple, had a big breakfast( Murugan Idli is really good ). Did little shopping ( Yeah Shopping!!!) 1 Soy Milk, 1 Cold Coffee, 1 Sneaker and 2 bananas. I planned to have Soy Milk after my AWA and COld Coffee before my Verbal and Bananas incase I ever felt hungry. Just before I left home, I quickly read Hindu editorial and felt good seeing my comprehension. Feel good factor is very important.

Kept all my belongings and reached exam by 11:30( My Exam was scheduled for 1:15). As I expected, I was asked if I was ready to take exam and there I was about to write GMAT again.

AWA:- AWA was pretty simple, it generally is, and I followed a template approach, Wrote it in 20 mins, added few examples here n there in the next 5 minutes and reviewed for grammar mistakes in next 5 minutes. I followed the same routine for Issue & argument. Expecting a good score ---Touch wood.

At the end of 1 hour, I was full of energy, managed to activate all my brain cells and was ready to take on the Real stuff. drank soy milk.

Quant:-Quant was good, The difficult part with Quant is, its easy but not as easy as is given in all the materials. This can throw many people off guard. I was expecting fairly simple questions and I guess I managed to answer all my first 20 questions right. 21st question was a probability question that was just too difficult, I guessed and it and I was wrong, Got an easy 22nd question. I performed fairly well after that but due to some illogical reasons could not answer the last question even though I knew the answer. I dont know whether it effected my Quant score.

Not discounting the last question, I was happy with my performance. Drank a cold coffee [ As I read in one of my RC passages that Coffee has ingredients that will artifically activate Brain's cells ]

Verbal:-This was it, I knew all along that it was my verbal score that will decide my fate and I was fairly confident on scoring around 40. Started in a good way, got a double bolded CR in 11th question, Which is usually a indication that I was performing well. Managed my time well. I got a really really difficult RC in Question Number 32-36. In generaly I would have struggled in such an RC but I guess on G-Day, after few nervous moments, I attacked it well and answered it well.

Was confident but really really nervous after the exam. I was so cool during exam but once I was done with it, I was too nervous to answer the survey, somehow managed to complete it and before I was to see the score, I was asked if I wanted to Report scores or Cancel them. Though I thought about it for a second, good sense prevailed, I decided to report scores and finally when I saw the score, I was Enthralled. To be frank I was more relaxed than enthralled. I Finally proved to me that I could do it and I badly needed this dose of confidence before the application process.