Blast from the Past:)

Its 6 in the morning, a Monday morning:( and I am reading. I keep telling myself that its ending and that its just matter of surviving time. The 'it' I am referring to is a monster. Its amazing how sometimes seemingly simple physical structures start haunting you, they take the form of a monster and scare you to nuts. I must say that I was never scared of this monster but yeah, it was indeed a monster. The introduction of monster can wait.

I start my brand-old bike (Pulsar 150, it unfortunately looked anything like new only until it was in the showroom, dont blame me for the condition, blame the global warming, blame the pollution.... again I am deviating from the topic), pick-up my friend and vroom on the highway. One side of my brain was trying to mug-up the words that I read in the morning and the other side was telling me to maintain speed. Its indeed annoying for a guy if a girl overtakes him on a Honda activa. I am not giving any hint that someone over took me and that someone was a girl. Anyways struggling through the juggling act of my brain, I manage to reach the monster.

I managed to meet my gang, the Goa Gang (it was the name suggested by girls:):):) ). The atmosphere was pretty tense, everyone was reading, everyone was criticizing the monster and everyone was surviving time.

Coming to the identity of the monster, the monster is my engineering college and this college, encouraged by its reputation, has decided to conduct internal examinations on Monday morning. Let me not get into the details of what I & my friends think about writing an internal examination on Monday morning, every Monday morning (yes!!!). We managed to complete the exam, some managed to cheat their way and some honest fellows like me failed their way.

Later, All of us sat in the canteen and started thinking of ways of surviving time. Coming to time, our engineering days were ending and many of us with a job-offer in hand could not wait to turn pro.
When everyone came up with their own ideas of surviving time, I asked a simple question. "How are we going to survive time after our engineering? We will not even have a college to survive????"

Every one laughed at my question but I began to see that this question, albeit funny, made all of us realize that a monster also has a life and we were unfortuntely very much part of that life. When some one sees a life ending, they recollect the good things about their life and most of us managed to realize that there were pretty good things that happened in this life.

I will use this series to recollect some good things that happenned in the monsters life. I must warn before hand that I am using my memory to recollect things. My memory has the ability to fragment and these fragments with their own twisted stories is all what is present in my memory. Do comment on what you think of this adventure / misadventure of mine...:)

A Director’s take on my Personal Life.

I love my life. I love every bit of it. When you love something so much as I do, you want it to be perfect. I must agree before hand that there are few not-so-perfect things that happened in my life. But the raspberry award for the best part goes to my personal life. Okay, I will be little clearer. The raspberry award for the best part goes to my attempts to get on with the opposite sex. I cannot be clearer. I am too shy.

Okay... now that the cat is out of the bag, the awful:( truth is out, let me analyse, in my own cute:) way, the great things that I have been doing. Here I go with my Director’s hat-on. I guess it’s already on. Anyway...

I am very particular about the cast in my movies. That explains the few auditions I took and also the few lucky people who managed to get through those arduous auditions. It ofcourse helps when the cast is only one person at a time. Here is where my trouble with perfection haunts me. Having made the casting a few times, I should have at least filmed one movie. Its not that I was worried about the climax, I hardly know the climax, (I guess I am one of those next generation directors who creates scripts ‘On the fly...’) But still I should have come up with some goods.

So what is the director doing with out filming the movie?
He is trying to perfect the perfection. He is trying to improve the sets, the lighting etc. My cast doesn’t actually know that a movie is being filmed. Being intelligent & sensible, they decided that nothing is happening here and went for greener pastures. I don’t even know if they gave it a thought. I mean thought about the movie that was being planned. The movie never took off...

If only my film had fewer cuts and even fewer retakes, I would have made a movie, a really beautiful movie.

Note:- The movie I was referring to in the above blog refers to the Love story I never had. I am adding this as an after thought as one of my friends made me realize that my blog has various meanings. Thanks Buddy:)
I just want to reassure my near n dear that I am still Chaithu, the good guy, the most eligible.......(Dreams again!!!).

A World of my own

“Close your eyes and remember GOD…”
“Sapne Dekho, Sapne Sach hote hain…”
“I can hear the happiness in your voice…”
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“You Made IT…”
“Chalo Boss, you finally have the keys to your treasure. I am inspired boss. I am Happy. I am proud”
“I always knew it dude…”
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“Ur light at the end of the tunnel is not that of an oncoming train…”


“I made it and I can’t stop smiling…”
“Chalo aur EK Sapna Sach huan…”

Normalcy resumes after the frenzy of my admit celebrations.
I am finally able to catch up my thoughts. I can’t help it if these thoughts take me back to the celebrations itself.

All these statements above (though not 100% original) were said by people around me. By People who matter the most to me.
I could not cover everyone but I am happy that I had so many people vouching for me… so many who matter the most to me.

If you have read my earlier Celebrating Work Post, you will get an insight into my thinking when I decided I wanted to do something else.

This long journey till now has brought quite a change in me.
I have improved by leaps n bounds. (My Yardstick to judge my improvement is my conscience)

What has improved me?

I guess it’s the people around me.
Some were present physically, some were present in the books/ articles I was reading and some were present in the words I was memorizing.

The other day, one of my close friends, was asking me what will I feel if I notice jealousy around me. I did not give him a proper answer.
Now I have an answer. I will feel proud. Proud of me. Proud of the people around me who helped me in becoming what I am today.

Its not that I have become something great but If someone can be jealous of me, I guess I have beccome something even if it is nothing.

World is a pretty interesting place. It has so much in it that by the time you ask “What’s in it for me?” U r inevitably left with very little time.
So it’s always better to try to get the most of what you have.
You may have friends, enemies, parties, achievements, failures but you have a journey, a journey called life.

With so many things in your beautiful journey, U have a World of your own and I am proud of mine.

Just Chill!!!

I am writing this post at a time when things around me are not at all certain. I even came to know that I hate Uncertainity:). SO I guess its double blow. Its at this time, seeing the fog ahead of me, that its easy to forget that I have come quite a distance, did quite a few things.

As a Kid, I loved seeing Maps and Globe. World for me is a big place and I knew that I wanted to see most of it. I dont know if its my confidence or my arrogance but I was always confident, baring few spells of madness, that I would one day see many places far far away from my sweet home. I guess I could say now that I did see quite a few places albeit in a small part of the world.

The highlight of my stay here is the Live match I saw in Old trafford. I was very very excited to see the match and I enjoyed like hell when seeing it. But Its still difficult for me to come up with words to describe the experience. The real feeling will sink in when I am back in India and I see a Manutd match sitting in a sofa in India. I guess that feeling can wait:)

I never considered myself a people-friendly guy but as days go-by, the most I miss in my life is people. I miss my family, my friends and many many other people. But interestingly I am meeting new friends, friends with whom I can spend hours talking with out getting bored. But yeah!!! you quickly realize that good friends are jewels and they are rightly hard to find and you obviously miss them.

Coming back to the uncertainity around me, I can feel the chillness inside me. The coooooool weather in London means that I feel the chillness more than ever. But looking back at the distance I have covered in this short time, I can only say to me Just Chill !!!

Chaithu in Chester , UK

Here I am, in this Beautiful world, Here I am...

People would consider me a big idiot if I don't say UK is beautiful. Just look at the pictures I took, you will know why. Of course the photos were taken by me. But people who know my skills behind a camera will vouch that the photos look good inspite of me not because of me:(:(:(

Coming to UK. UK is cool and calm. The first thing I notice about the place is the amazing roads, cars and the systematic way in which people live here. I would be telling a lie if I say I wasn't bowled over initially. Its winter and when it gets cold here, its really really cold. Its so calm that people will hear you even if you are talking to yourself. The day here ends at 6:00. Expect no shops after that except Tesco and other biggies. You will find most of the roads deserted after 7. People here are also very very particular about mannerisms, I don't know if its because of their generosity or their colonial past.

After a few weeks here, UK for me crawls. Life here is so systematic that people like me who come from India really wonder whats going on. I am already missing the noise and life of India. But as long as I earn in Pounds, I will not mind :).

Expect oldies in Work place. The younger ones here are in their 30's. With no disrespect to elders, I come from a place where I was surrounded by people of my age, people who were always looking for an opportunity to overtake me. In here forget about over takings, you are supposed to hold the door for the people coming behind you. I guess even I am doing it, I hope it does not slow me down. But buddies, you will seriously not mind some of the 30's you see around you. Trust me on this. Period.

The one "Ooh la la... " thing I love about UK is football. Its the country of Manchester United. Soon I am going for a stadium tour of Manchester United. I will be in Dressing rooms, Dugouts etc etc :):):) Hold your breath!! I am going to watch Manchester United vs Middlesbrough Live on 27 October and I am going to be seated Front ROW!!!!. I may not have the best viewing angle but watching Manchester United so close and that too from front row satisifies one of my long cherished dreams. Will come up with more pictures in the coming weeks.